Life in this Choas

Hey guys, I know its been a while since I’ve posted anything. I’ve been a little preoccupied with attempting to start my garden. A lot is going on right now  in America and worldwide. The Coronavirus’s threat knocks on our doorstep, and then there’s the issue of Civil rights and people fighting for justice.
I’ve found that With everything going on, it has been easy for me to get caught up in it all. Over the past several months, there have been many situations where my anxiety had gotten the best of me. There have been days when I’ve been in tears due to how society treats people of color.
There have been days I find myself overthinking the pandemic and freaking out, thinking that I may have to stock up on supplies and food.
With everything I’ve come to realize that To be the best mother and wife I need to be on my A game mentally. Some people may not agree, but the woman of the house sets the tone for how everything and everyone in the home reacts to things. Over the past several months, I’ve had to figure out ways to stay sane and provide comfort to my family even when I’ve been panicking inside. So I began trying to find my own hobbies and things that would allow me to get a break from all of the chaos.
 In the past 4 months, I’ve started a blog, I’ve begun cooking more, I’ve worked on trying to learn more and not watch as much meaningless tv shows. Don’t get me wrong I love pointless TV like Family feud and reality tv shows but, I’ve found that it doesn’t help me mentally. Recently I even started a garden.
In times like now, we need to be able to refocus on meaningful things in life. We need to take this time to learn and grow. At first, it was difficult for me to wrap my head around it all and even now. I’d never in a million years imagine being at home with my kids and husband all day. I’d never imagined applying for unemployment or homeschooling or having to go places with Masks on. This whole thing is a new way of life.
I say all of this to say that no matter what’s going on around us, we still need to find time for ourselves, and we need to make sure we are healthy to be the best we can for our families.